Under Renovation

It fascinates me every time when I think of how different we are. Even when it comes to the way we handle things and issues in everyday life. Sometimes it frustrates me why you are so slow in thinking of a solution for a simple task when I can easily plan out the way to solve it. Sometimes, I think it’s good for me, coz that makes me look smarter =) But that doesn’t mean that every time I have the best approach. There are also times when your patience turns out to be the best way out in situations that I lost control of. Little things like this always snake their way into my days to remind me how you are different from others. You are not out-standing in any particular ways. You are not exactly someone that I would want to date when I was a little girl. You are not as strong and powerful as my hero Batman; you are never a romantic guy, far different from the prince who kisses Sleeping Beauty from her long sleep; you don’t seem to have the similar sense of fashion or art like what I have. Man…what can I say… Still I can just tell you anything, yes basically anything. There is never really a complete silence during our conversation. Hardly any aaeeyy? Remember the conversation that night when you sent me back; that was simply amusing =P

Me: (In semi-shouting tone) Those two supervisors, they are really terrible. No sense of responsibility at all!! How long more do I have to wait for the correction?

You: Haha…………

Me: (Ignoring the fact that you haven’t give any response) I’m so full of dissatisfaction, I can kill them!!!! So so frustrating, you know.

You: Yes, I know (Actually do you really know?)………

Me: I don’t care, they really make me angry……

You: (In a very gentle way) Do you know you are so amusing? The expression when you are angry? Hahaha… so adorable…

Me: WHAT? I’m not making any joke, I’m really angry… Hahahaha…(I ended up laughing too, as I know I had just over-reacted)

That’s the difference between us. You just see problems in a different way. And you make me relax too especially when I encounter things that are really out of my control.

But now there is no place for you in my heart. It is now under major “renovation.” I don’t know if I can end up making a space for you, but I’m trying my best now.